Saint Silouan Athonite
“Keep your Mind in Hell and Despair Not”
luni, 30 noiembrie 2009
sâmbătă, 28 noiembrie 2009
Părintele Arsenie Boca - cuvânt către noi
vineri, 27 noiembrie 2009
De ce te lasă Dumnezeu să urli de durere?
joi, 26 noiembrie 2009
Conferințe duhovnicești organizate de Liga Tinerilor Creștini Ortodocși din Târgu - Mureș
Duminica, 13 decembrie, 2009, ora 18, Conferința cu tema "Provocări actuale în viața creștinului" susținută de Părintele Arhimandrit Nechifor, stareț al Mănăstirii "Sfinții Trei Ierarhi" din Iași și exarh al Mitropoliei Moldovei.
miercuri, 25 noiembrie 2009
Maica Siluana - Seminar dedicat femeii ortodoxe, la Mănăstirea Horaiţa, septembrie 2009
Sometimes we ask, “Why can’t I make a new beginning?” And the answer might come back, “Am I ready?” The human is the only creation which is always growing, even into eternity. The Human is perfected when we see Christ. But even then we are not finished. Always we need to think of this process of growing so that we have hope. If I make some major decision but cannot fulfill it, I know and must remember that this is not the end. The old Eve, when she fell, was broken, as was Adam. I am a human being, even though a new one in Christ. I am broken in mind, sentiments, and wishes. The first work of God is to heal my brokenness. My favorite book of the Old Testament is Hosea. God tells Hosea to marry a prostitute and uses this as an example of
Why do I have need of God? He obligates us, allows us in all our relationships to become what He intends us to be. I learn from my parents good and bad, especially bad if they have not been changed through faith. I must give myself, the whole person, to God. I have to explain to God why I am lying, crying, full of vices, etc. Each of us has to offer the “Person within Us” to God, give Him that which has been given throughout the generations. There is no other way to salvation.
If I confess what has been passed to me from the generations, God will forgive and remove the burden. The power of God is so big (great) that God can unite us even when we are fallen, otherwise God could not have made the child vulnerable. The child cannot change himself to be responsible. In a meeting of teens, good and bad, one boy said to me, “You want me to become like the good ones, but I can’t. If my father is a thief, how do I go home and renounce this? What would my father do with me if I didn’t join him?” We must renounce our vices. It is true that the more I say, “I’ll never do it like my mother,” the more I do as she did.
I like the New Eve, the Bride of Christ. This new person must let go of the mother and father within us, not in the physical sense but in the values. I have to reach inside and try to get rid of these parts of me. And the way to heal ourselves is that we offer one by one these parts to God for change and modification. The sin is not to steal the watermelon but to make the choice. A fever is a sign that I am sick. When I am sick inside, with the help of God, I can change my patterns. The Fathers were able to do this, but we are not like them. Now God helps us through other people, people with different names than in the church, sometimes with names such as psychiatrist. The Fathers say that our soul is like a watermelon in water; it bobs, showing what is above (the conscious), but below is much more (the subconscious). When you offer to God what is above, the subconscious bobs higher into view. So keep offering more and more to God. The saints go through this process so much that they have nothing in their subconscious. So, as you see, you can’t change completely overnight. You must take small steps, such as a commitment to pray five minutes more a day.
We want to embody Christ, put Him in us. Why do we say so often, “Lord, have mercy”? Why do we take the Eucharist so often? It is so this will become a part of our nature, not the mind working but the recognition of sin and the choice for good without thinking. No one is concerned about our becoming accustomed to Satan through the T.V. and other vices of society, but they worry that we take communion too frequently. It is needful!
This process is not easy but requires concentration and work. There is a Romanian saying, “God gives, but He doesn’t put it in our bag.” We need to work at it. It is also said that every problem can be solved 1) alone or 2) with God, or 3) with Satan.
Topic: Leadership…response to the retreat participants not liking to be called to be leaders.
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We see women as slaves, cooks, mothers, but if we are humble, we don’t grimace at the word “leader.” We have fear, but when we know to follow Christ, we do not worry about the word “leader” but instead learn what we are called to do.
Our fears give rise to emotional reactions.
Why is food at a monastery always better? A monk or nun (even a slothful one) prays over the food. At home we throw it in the pot. Every movement in our life should be a liturgy, a working together to thank God. We return bread and wine to Him, He transforms it and gives it back through the priest who repeats the words of Christ in the Holy Scripture. What we do in our daily lives should use the same model. I am angry. I envy. I feel helpless. Go to His Word, “Be angry but do not sin.” Give all that is in us to Him, praying for God to transform us. Do not concentrate on proficiency or performance but put off your “self” and ask for help. Pray three times a day in the same way. You can pray wherever you are, even in the bathroom (did not God create us with bodily functions?) if you do so with dignity and sincerity of seeking Him.
We have so many thoughts. Like a child tugging at your skirt, if you ignore them, they become more insistent. But let go of judgment, do not comment on them.
Silence is in your mind, not in the nave. There is, says St. John of Damascus, a circle of connection between the material and spiritual world. We pray in Truth (for Christ said that He was the Truth) and Spirit. Ones who love each other can be silent, can share a look in silence. There is no need to speak.
First, however, we should hear our prayer words spoken by us; hearing and speech unite. Try to gather the two to be a carriage, a carriage to God. We need attention in the mind before we move to the heart. The first sign that we meet God is a breaking of the heart. We say, “I’m helpless,” not “I can’t do (whatever) because of what my mother did.,” but put off the old self. I try to make myself a victim, but I must take responsibility for myself, for my own helplessness. This breaking is a very short moment of pain because then we come to joy and tears as we recognize who we are.
The Holy Spirit is for us. God is of our nous. This is not just for the twelve disciples or the priests but for each one of us. Do not comfort yourself that you cry, that you recognize that you are a sinner. Allow the pain of the breaking. Do not block the way of the Holy Spirit. This is difficult, but life without God is worse. When you are alone, you run from God when instead you should look for Him.
There are things of Mystery that should not be said when in a spirit of pride or frivolity. These only inform Satan. Here in church we are covered and can share some of these deep experiences, but otherwise we need to hold some things in ourselves. We need to share only when out of love and to benefit of another’s soul. We pray not for someone’s needs (which we aren’t really aware of and should not ask details of), but for their salvation.
Do not question God without listening to the answer. At times you will not have the capability to receive. Give it time. Humans have two hemispheres, the right which intuits and says “aha,” and the left which takes information and does not let you have peace until it makes logic of the right hemisphere. God gave us both sides. The Holy Spirit can help us put aside and consider all things. The right hemisphere has many black spots, traumas, and is more vulnerable to the demonic. In the world today there is much chemical imbalance, causing some to choose to live in violence, craziness or physical illness. A person in despair does not believe in anything; this often occurs in a generation that is concerned with material things. Psychosis equals a lack of meaning of life. You just need an ear that listens, a heart that prays.
You must know the criminal within yourself in order not to judge another. I need to love the one in front of me while hating the sin. Seeing a naked woman in a pornographic position, we can be horrified or curious or have pain for the woman. According to how we see our own sexuality is how we look at porn. If we look at someone whose guts are on the train track, what do we see or feel—compassion—and then call an ambulance. Compare this with the naked lady. She has been hit by a train.
We have a psychological need to judge so that we feel better about ourselves. We need someone to tell us that we are good. If no one tells, we tell ourselves by judging. It is true that we are not good; only God is good within us. So we need to ask for God to be in our whole body and blood.
Guilt is not in wishes or thoughts of sinning, but only in what you do with them. [There was a story here that I did not take down…my notes just say “child/whore.” ] On the other hand, I can reach a mountain, but if I don’t have the thought, the motivation to climb, I can’t. We are stopped by fears and thoughts and the subconscious from the past. Moving on requires forgiveness. We need to tell someone so that we can be forgiven. And we must forgive to be forgiven.
A child who is abused is told not to tell. So the child abuses himself, does not tell, refuses to remember. He avoids the immediate consequences of the present, being convinced that the mother, the police, no one will believe. Schizophrenia can develop. A schizophrenic can be healed with the right love, responsibility, and psychiatry. Schizophrenia is a symptom of the family, but this person must be helped to become responsible for himself.
A part from a few, the mentally ill are not violent. If I show no fear, a mentally ill person does not hurt me. He can lead me into the temptation of acting crazy, but if my trust is in God, I can joke with him over his crazy behavior, “Can you do it again?”
Topic: Marriage
We are One in Christ because we are different, because we need each other to be a whole. Two become married so one will help the other. We are not to think exactly alike. We might affect so much change in our husband that we’d ask, “Why aren’t you the man I married?” We are not meant to be identical. Each person needs time to be alone. Being One is not to erase differences but to bring salvation through the love relationship of husband-wife-Trinity. We do not think about how we are original, but with God we see how we are unique, how He created us to be.
There are moments when a person hurts us; it is because we had expectations. If I talk about behavior, not about being, I both judge my husband and criticize his mother. Instead tell how you feel when he calls you “Stupid!”
We use our more aggressive side for defense or for growth, but we have other ways to grow. Use that self-defense energy in reading or cleaning or praying.
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